Trying To

At the moment I am trying to create a new reality for myself. That being because the Meds turned My Life upside down. My life literally changed for lets say the worse. As you well know I have become Apathetic and motivation less. (I am not too sure if you spell it like that) Plus I am still battling to get  everything to make sens for me. For instance am I doing stuff for the sake of doing stuff or is it something I would want to do. So more to the point who am I really and what do I want. This having changed for I am no longer the same way as I used to be.