Gwen Stefani - Cool

Invited

So been invited out for a late lunch today even though I am still stuffed from the croissants this morning not too sure what I am going to do. Lol. Can't exactly say that your full now can you. Anyway will have to see how it goes.

This Morning

Had some croissants for Breakfast this morning I was going to have a Cappuccino as well but I had too much coffee yesterday when went out for breakfast. So had some savory and sweet. Could have had the chocolate but instead opted out for the plain.

Say Yes

Beside all the other shows on TLC I also like Say Yes To The Dress. I watch all the repeats and sometimes watch the ones I have seen already. Well I like it that much what can I do.

Angry Randy | Say Yes to the Dress

Last Night

So watched some Future Forward last night but went to bed early instead of staying up for longer. So which worked out ok. Got a Dvd for tonight if it is any good will tell you about it tomorrow.

Had To

Today I had to take the Med for Anxiety since I was feeling Anxious this Morning. As I said before I am not taking the Mid Day Only if I need it. Well today I really need it plus I have enough over for me to do so since I am not taking the Mid Day Meds. I just wish there was something a bit more potent.

Running

So was running around doing grocery shopping this morning. Before that went and had some cappuccinos and breakfast. It gets busy when its month end. Which goes without saying. So the best is to go to places that wont be too busy. Well you would have to know before hand as too which would be or not. Well that is really obvious.

Long Island Medium

To Say

So I have to say that I am doing ok with the Meds at the moment. Even though I am not taking the one I should be taking at noon. If I feel like taking it I will. Well its for Anxiety which the Doctor increased overall. Not to say that I am sleeping less in fact the opposite. Which really has nothing to with The Meds. I am thinking of finding a support group for people with depression. I first have to find out if there is one in my area. I know that there are groups otherwise I would not search for one. It wont be a big thing if there isnt one at all.

Alchemist

So I am quite far into the Neutronium Alchemist. That being the second book in the trilogy that I am reading. So slowly but surely the story is coming together. It will be interesting to see how it comes to a conclusion. Yes I know I have got one more book in the series. So the story is far from finished. There are certainly alot of characters you have to keep track with. Which I like. makes the story more interesting that way.

Was Able

So last weekend got a new duvet set which I washed today. It's ok looking not that thrilled about it but will still use it since it was cheap for what it is. |I was also able to do some clothes washing as well which I normally do on Fridays.

Norm

So I went to the Gym today fortunately they had power. So I was able to do all that I normally. Although I did not do 20 minutes on the tread mill I did only 10 minutes. Which is ok since I did 40 minutes overall.

Careless Whisper Makes You Sexy

I Did

As I said I made it to the gym. Only thing is they did not have power. So I ended up only doing half of what I normally do. Hopefully they will have power tomorrow when I drag my sorry self over there.

Slept

I slept most of the day away since I really did not feel up to doing anything. I did however mange to make it to the Gym Bar that fact the rest of the day was a waste. Time flies when you crawled up into a ball.

Neighbor

My neighbor is driving me crazy with his music. It is amazing how some people can be so self involved that they just cant even begin to understand the concept of consideration. yes there are people like that. Just pray you don't end up living next door to one. No matter how many times I Have complained the situation remains the same. At this point I am not sure what to do. Hopefully something I can do.

Kylie Minogue - Chocolate

Today

So I did not go to Gym today so it has ended up being a really lazy day. Which I am sort of OK about. I normally feel guilty if I have spent too much time in bed. Although I will say that I Looovve my bed. Well who doesn't when your depressed. I will however go tomorrow just to break the ay up. So I don't end up moping around.

Last Night

So last night watched two episodes of Long Island Medium and one of Breaking Amish. I love both of the Shows and always look forward to watching them. It's kinda of my treat for the rest there is not much to watch.

Homework

So My Therapist gave me some home work to do. It's an online questionnaire that helps you identify what your strengths are and from there you can focus on them. As opposed to the negatives. So ultimately building or focusing on your strengths you will a happier individual. As well as possibly doing some volunteer work. I have not filled in the form yet. I am a bit of a procrastinator . Well with volunteering I will at least fill my time with something instead of sleeping all the time. Probably do it either on a Wednesday or Thursday. Now I just have to find something to do on two more days and my week will be full. I also must find out if there is a support group for people suffering from depression in my area.

Linen

So once again I managed to get the Linen done and its folded and put away. I sometimes have to try and find the motivation to do these kinds things. Since my Meds have stripped me of My Motivation. I know it sounds weird but they have. Go figure.

Return

So I have returned from my Therapy session. Which started of a bit rocky but gathered steam as it went a long. So all in all it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. With these things you never know what actually comes to be the focus of the session. For you might just stumble upon something that needs to handled.

Ready

Getting Ready to go to My Therapist will be leaving in about a half an hour. Not really sure what I am going to speak about today. Hopefully I will be able to come up with a topic before I get there. Sometimes it happens that I don't have anything to say which ends up with a rather drawn out session. not that I don't have things to say ordinarily just they don't pertain to the sessions

Done

So at least I have cleaned the Abode for this week. So that is done. Couple things extra which I will do at another time during the week.

At Least

Not feeling that Anxious today. Which is a good thing I suppose. At least its a break from that. Because it really does take a lot out of you if your continuously feeling Anxious.

Cool

So I was able to do 50 minutes of exercise which is quite cool. Met someone at the Gym which I know did not speak for very long. Still so this time it was a good one. Thinking of adding something to the routine just not sure what to do yet. Saw this really tall Blonde today.

Last

So last night I watched a whole bunch of episodes of Future Forward. I think there is 5 more until the end of the Season. Which is a bummer and I am going to miss the show. Will have to wait for the next season. Who knows when that will happen.

Last Night

So last night I did not have a Dvd. So watched a couple of episodes of "Future Forward". Tried to find a clip on You Tube nothing came up of the search. Anyway that was good probably watch some more tonight. Actually more than likely.

Enrique Iglesias - Heartbeat ft. Nicole Scherzinger

A Bit

I am feeling Anxious again just not too sure as to what it is caused by. I really don't like the feeling. It's like being on edge all the time as if something is just about to happen and not necessarily a good thing. Most of the time it's nothing. Well you never know really what is going to happen.

Around

So Was running around this morning. Firstly when to have a cappuccino and a muffin. Then went to this one Mall just to get some inconsequential stuff. Then went to another Mall and got a new Duvet cover. I will have to wash it before using. So will do that sometime this week. Probably only put on next week.

Today

So went running around this morning and then had some coffee and breakfast at a restaurant. Which was nice then came back to the Abode. I suppose the rest of the day will be a relaxed doing nothing kinda day.
I don't like sport just Movies and books and good conversation. Don't like sports is putting it mildly. If when watching Tv , Sports come on I flip the Channel to something more interesting like TLC.

Last Night

So I watched "Silver Linings Playbook" last night. Not a bad Movie about a guy that gets released from a Psychiatric hospital and tries to find his way. Nice entertainment. Give it a go not everyone's cup of tea. Then again I like the offbeat type of Movies.

Silver Linings Playbook Official Trailer #1 (2012)

In Case

Just in case you have not seen "Long Island Medium" I have posted a post below. So at least when I refer to the show you will know what I am referring to.

Behind the Read: Baby Angelina | Long Island Medium

Last Night

So last night I was watching repeats of "Say Yes To The Dress" on TLC. I just love Randy he is so hug-able. Except he wasn't in the ones shown last night. Which was a pity. Never the less it was cool watching.

I Will

After much debating I have decide to go to gym today and believe me it was hard. There are days when I just don't have the motivation to go.

I wanted to sleep in today. Well sleep a little longer than long. But I decide not to. Since I had some washing to do. It ends up being every three to four days that I need to do washing. By then it has piled up and is enough for one full load and when I say full I mean really full. Since I have a front loader. Which I cant stand I prefer the top loaders. They aren't as fussy as the front loaders and the washing does not get so tangled. Which is a real pain in the ......... Well at least that is almost done just waiting for the end of the last cycle and I can get the washing out. it just never seems to end does it. It feels like the same day over and over. You find yourself saying didn't I just do laundry.

How To Live Life On The Edge ... A Little Bit: Jenna Marbles

Cool

So I was at the Gym today and was able to do 20 minutes on the treadmill as opposed to the 10 minutes that I normally do. Only thing is I did not do the rowing machine as I always do. So all in all it was pretty cool today at the Gym.

Sleep

Well today was pretty much dominated by sleep. I just did have the motivation to do much besides Gym. Which happens every now and then.

Planning a Proposal | Breaking Amish

Ball

After having come back from gym and having a shower. I curled up into a ball on the bed a slept for quite awhile.

Did

So I went to gym which was ok. Did battle on the cycle machine well its supposed to be a bicycle. Well whatever you call it. Stuck it out and did the twenty minutes. That was the only thing I struggled with.

So

So I have started my new Med regime today. I am not going to take my new med at noon since it will make me feel sleepy. Believe me I don't need Meds to make me feel sleepy since I a can sleep at a drop of a hat. I could possibly sleep just about any where. Well not any where just about. Plus its not a huge thing that I am taking an extra amount. It is just known that the Med I am taking makes you feel sleepy. Which I take at night at a higher dosage to help me sleep through.

After

After shopping I will be going to the Gym for the first time this week. I don't know how it''s going to go since if you don't follow a routine then the body gets lazy. Like you cant not go for two weeks and then expect to pick up from where you left off. Anyway I am not going to the Gym to look super buffed . All I wan tot do is look normal and not ripped. In other words muscle showing all over the place. That is definitely not for me.

Going

Oh well going out just now to get something to eat at the store close to the abode. Well not too close but close enough.

Tonight

So Tonight I am going to watch a couple of episode of Long Island Medium and Breaking Amish. Its a staple for me to watch. Sometimes get the whole season and watch all of them. Well maybe a couple at a time. Can't watch them all at once it would be too much.

Therapist

I also got to see My Therapist today. Which I do every Tuesday. It was quite an interesting Session today. We delved into some issues. Which we had not touched on before.

Increase

So i saw my Doctor today. My one lot of Meds was increased since I was feeling Anxious. Apparently Anti Depression Meds can make you feel Anxious. So supposedly its a balancing act between those and the other Meds. First time I've heard of that. So lets see if it works. It will be a month before I see my Doctor again. I only go once a month.

Morning

So part two of washing this morning. I  usually do the linen on Tuesday. It just makes more sense to spread it out over two days. Otherwise it is just too much for one day I find. So once again that is finished for now

Tomorrow

So yes tomorrow is my trip to go see My Therapist. Which happens once a week. My last trip there was pretty much uneventful. Hopefully this time we get more done than last time. It possibly was because I really did not have mush to talk about at all. There are sometimes that you just don't feel like doing Therapy for it is a lot of work.

Still

Still feeling a bit anxious. I think I will ask my Doctor tomorrow to increase My Meds or put me on something else. Well lets see what happens there. I will be going to my doctor tomorrow which only happens once a month. This time it just happens to coincide with my visit to My Therapist. Well they are both far away and the same region so it makes sens to have both appointments at the same time.

Amish

 Just in case there is no confusion. I am not Amish. I just happen to like their lifestyle a lot. Well their culture to be more specific. I know that it is really a hard lifestyle and not for everyone. Still the sense of community is something we have lost a long time ago and they just happen to be one of the last vestiges of that type of lifestyle. So if you aren't interested in them it's no big deal.

Some

So as per usual I did some cleaning of the abode today and then some washing as well. Was up just a little bit earlier than usual for the week that is.

Leaving Amish Paradise

Started

Started watching a new series last night. Its not bad it's called "Flash Forward". Have got the first season so will end up watching that again tonight.

Did

Decide to take a nap since I was feeling a bit anxious. Not that I slept for very long. Still feeling a bit anxious. Don't know why. Anxiety

Running Around

So was running around this morning. First went for coffee and a muffin for breakfast. After that did some Mall stuff and then went to a Mall quite far from there. Really did not do much but go to a couple of shops for getting some stuff. Finished that and went back to the Abode. So all in all not a very eventful day.

Trouble In Amish Paradise

Going

Later Will be going to watch a movie at the Mall. Which should be good here's hoping. Will probably eat out and then come back to The Abode. Then it's another day done.

Last Night

So watched the last episode of the current season of Greys Anatomy. Pretty sad that there isn't' anymore to watch. Waiting for the next lot before watching.

Mall

So got up kinda early. Well what is early for and went to the Mall to do something things. So having done all I had to. Went to another Mall and Coffee etc. Could have gone to the first one but in between then and coffee had to stop at another shop to get some stuff. Sounds a bit complicated but it was not. Not too worry came back to the Abode.

Meet the Amish 4 of 4 - Night club and pagan festival

Last

So this will be last of this specific part of the documentary of these particular Amish Adolescents. It's a pity since I feel that I am just beginning to get to know them. It's like coming to the end of a good book. Where you have to say goodbye to characters you have come to love.

Some

So I also managed to do some laundry as well. Which I hung inside . So it can dry overnight. Normally it is dry by the morning. Which is a good thing.

Did

So I did got to Gym today. Woke up a bit earlier than I would have. Not that it makes much difference since it is still late in the morning.

Meet the Amish 3 of 4 - Taste of the high life

Time Flies

I suppose we all wish we could slow time down. It really is a pity that when you do something you like the time goes faster. Well that's the perception. Obviously the time flows as it always does not faster or slower. Well then we could wish that there more hours in the day to do what it is that we want to do. Yet both of these are really wishes and it comes down to priority as to what we want to spend our time doing what. having depression this is not always as easy.

Watching

So for the moment I am watching My Vlogs. Those that I have subscribed to on You Tube. I have quite a few subscriptions. I like finding out things about others. I suppose it allows you to see how others view the world. Without leaving the comfort of your home. There are times when there aren't any to watch which makes me a bit sad. Since I always look forward to viewing them.

Should Have

I decided not to go to Gym today and just have a lazy day. So I slept for an extra couple of hours and got up late. Every now and then I do this. For what ever reason it does make me feel a bit guilty. So the longer I stay in bed the more I feel. So it's not as if I am thoroughly enjoying it. With a few regrets I eventually get up. What I do wish for is to sick and be able just to rest for a long while. It's just I have not been sick for a long time. Well I suppose you can call depression a sickness. Except I talking about a cold or the flu or something like that. I know it does not make much sense but that was already explained.This Blog will at times not make much sense. Well that's just how I fell about it.

Meet the Amish 2 of 4 - Ungodly music and hedonistic lifestyle

Back

So I am back from Both Therapy and My Tattoo Artist. I did have the right time for the Session. Which was a big relief. My Tattoo Artist is so fully booked that I am on a sort of waiting list. So it's a wait an see when I will be able to get my Tattoo finished. Any where between now and the end of the year. Yeah I know bit of thing but what can you do.

Tattoo

After having seen My Therapist Today I am going to stop on the way back to go and see My Tattoo Artist to make an appointment to get the on Tattoo on my back finished. I have been procrastinating for way too long. So it's time now. Hopefully I can get a n appointment soon.

Getting Ready

So I am getting ready to take the trip to go see My Therapist. I just hope I've got the time right as I said before it would be a waste if I don't. Well we will have to see whether I am right or not.

Meet the Amish 1 of 4 - First experience on an aeroplane

Therapy

I just hope I have got the time right for my session tomorrow I don't want to have to go and miss it after having traveled so far. Now that would be a waste of time.

No More

So I am not feeling like there is something missing anymore. I possibly have done something to alleviate the feeling. Well at least I think so.

Another

Yet another Tuesday in the endless supply of Tuesdays. So just about finished with the washing. Just waiting for the one duvet cover to dry in the dryer. In fact let me go check now. Maybe it's dry already. Yep it was finished. So now I am finished for the day with that at least. Thank goodness.

The Amish

No I am not an Amish not that there is anything wrong with them. If that is what makes them happy them I am happy for them. For me it's the fascination with the simple life. Where Family matters and not gadgets which divide families. The other day I went to a restaurant where there was a family of four there as well each of the family had a note book or a pad with them except for the one daughter. For me this was unfathomable. It's not the first time I have seen this. For me it makes no sens. If you aren't going to share a meal with those around having conversation then why even bother coming to restaurant you should have stayed a home. So the life of the Amish is family centered. Which is a lot more healthy. Well that's my two cents worth.

A Bit

Just feeling a bit weird today. It's like I am missing something or there is something I need to be doing but I am not. The feeling just came over me this morning. Not quite sure what set it about. Just every now and again I  get these feelings. As I stated before I am not sure what causes them but still I get them. Invariably I tend to ignore it if I can. If it persist then I try to figure out what is causing it. Not too say I am always able to figure them out. Well this is the sense part of things.

Wednesday

Unfortunately My Therapy Session to morrow has bee pushed to Wednesday. I just hope I have got the time right. Otherwise I will be wasting time.

Not Bad

So yes after having done the chore for the day I set about going to Gym. Which was not that bad today. I am trying to get back to doing 20 minutes on the treadmill as opposed to 10 minutes. I have done twenty before so its not like its beyond my reach.

Done

So today is the cleaning of the Abode day. Which I have already done so I am glad about that. Well it's every Monday. Tomorrow I will be doing the washing of the Linen. Now that I have shared that with you I ma sure you feel that much closer to me. Lol.

Amish: A Secret Life

White Lies: Jenna Marbles

Nothing

I had a movie to watch last night but it was nothing worth reporting about since it was so boring. So boring that i don't even want to mention it. I did however read some of my book last night. Got up early this morning to go shopping. More than likely have a Nap this afternoon.

Did Not

Well have new series that need to be put in the Tv. So I did not have to get a Dvd for today. For there really is nothing on Tv on Sundays. Well at least I think so. So will watch which ever takes my fancy.

Just Got Back

Went Shopping for a few items nothing really serious. Got them all. have to say the Shops weren't that busy which I like. Really cant stand it when the Malls are packed with people. gets a bit claustrophobic. Not that I am claustrophobic at all. Just don't like large crowds at all.

Today

So because I stayed up last night I decide to sleep really late today. Which I did. I can sleep for a really long time but there does come a time when I have to get up. I sleep approximately 13 hours from the time I go to bed. What I will say in my defense is that Einstein used to sleep for 11 hours. So i think I am in good company. Lol. Plus he was not depressed I am.

After

I read my Book for awhile after I watched my movie. I am pretty much halfway with the Triolgy. A lot happening. It will be really interesting to see how Hamilton will wrap it up. Well still a way to go since the books are quite thick each in excess of a thousand pages. I really don't like it when a story finish quickly. Hence the fact that I like Trilogies.

I Know

Yes it's really old but I have never watched it before. So I watched "Burlesque" with Cher amongst others. It was good entertainment definitely not Oscar worthy. But still I enjoyed it. The Plot was a bit thin. Still if you haven't watched it yet give it a whirl.

Burlesque Movie Clip "Let Me Show You" Official (HD)

How Girls Get Dressed: Jenna Marbles

So

So I was watching this Dvd last night it was one of those romantic Asian movies except there was no subtitles except it had English when the actors spoke English . So I ended up calling it quits since I decided That I could not watch the whole Movie like that. Well whats the point when you can only understand one third of the Movie. So that sucked.

Again

So I made it to Gym again today. Which was a miracle since I slept really late and even when I got back had a Nap. I think I am going to have to find something to do so my life does not end up being one long sleeping match. Since I suffer from Clinical Depression it is quite hard to motivate myself.

Internet

Wasn't able to get on the Net because there was a problem with My Isp. It was quite frustrating. Tried to get hold of them but alas for some reason the line was always engaged. Luckily it was resolved and was able to get on the Net again. Hence the late posting.

Washing

So I had to go do the Washing. By that I mean I had to do the washing of the clothes. Well I thought I would have to explain that for those who are from other countries. Now that is done I can settle down now. Thank goodness.

'Breaking Amish' Cast: Life After Leaving Amish Community

Found

So I normally have channels that I subscribe to on You Tube which I watch everyday. It is something I look forward to. Anyway I was looking for the Vlogs I normally watch and I found This Tv Show from TLC called " The Little Couple". I would really like to watch the Show. It really is something down my Alley. This is the type of show I like watching.

The Little Couple discuss if they would like to be average sized

Gym

I try to go to Gym at least three times a week. Normally anywhere between thirty minutes to forty is what I try to achieve. I really don'y want to look like a body builder. I just want to look normal without the rippling muscle effect. It normally isn't a hard thing to motivate myself to go but there are days where I just can't picture myself doing Gym. It happens once in awhile. So no biggy I don't think. Always bearing in mind that I suffer from depression so sometimes motivating myself to do certain things can be a struggle.

Shopping

After having Slept late this Morning. Which is a pretty normal thing for me. I went shopping to get a few goodies as well as a Dvd for tonight.

Kate Plus Eight

So yes it's old but I just finished watching "Jon and Kate Plus Eight". Well really the last season is more Kate and the kids than Jon. That is after the divorce. So I really loved watching the kids grow up especially how their personalities came to the fore. I know it's not everyone's cup of tea. Yet not all reality Tv is my cup of tea there are shows that I don't like watching.

Jenna Marbles

I just Love watching Jenna marbles uploads. She is really funny. She posts once a week. So it's a staple for me to watch her uploads.

What Guys Do When They're Drunk: Jenna Marbles

Watching

So I was watching "Long Island Medium" and "Breaking Amish"last night. Both interesting shows well at least I think so. I try not to miss them. I think we are watching an old series at the moment. It does not really matter. So I ended up going to bed late last night so I slept in today. The post I put up of "Long Island Medium" is part of the show I watched last night. So at least that is right. The post I put of "Breaking Amish" is part of the post I watched last night. So at least the two are accurate. More than anything "Breaking Amish" is really interesting to see ho the Amish kids to the "English" way of life. There is not many Tv Shows that I stay up to see. Normally I would be reading My Book. I prefer reading in Bed at night rather than the day. It just lends itself to reading..

Come to Take You Home | Breaking Amish

Long Island Medium Season 3 Episode 13 Halloween Spirit Part 1

Back

So I have come back from My Therapy Session. Which was a bit of a strain. I will never relate what happens in the Sessions since that is entirely personnel. However I will give a one or a couple words summation as how it affected me emotionally as I have already. Seeing that I suffer from depression I tend to sleep a lot and I mean a lot. So when I got back I took an hour nap before resuming My Day. I suppose that sleeping is the way that helps us escape from the depression and the futility of it all. It does sounds a bit desperate but I have to say it can be rather desperate. Yet we go through bouts of Depression. Anyway it is what it is. Hence the need for Medication.

Andrew Solomon : Love, no matter what

Reality Dysfunction Trilogy

So at the moment I am reading the trilogy Reality Dysfunction by Peter F Hamilton. I am on the second book of the Triology. You will see all three books below. If your into Sci Fi I would recommend reading his books. I am thoroughly enjoying the books. Unfortunately when I enjoy a book I read quite fast. Since I get involved in the story and it's characters. I don't like giving anything of the Plot but I am sure you can get a review through Google.

Peter F Hamilton

Therapy

So I will be travelling to My Therapy Session. It is quite far away from where I live. So it is always a trip to go to Therapy. Plus the Therapist I see is really good so that should answer the question as to why I travel so far. I have been going there for awhile. The other Therapist I had before this was also really far and then I swapped over to the one I am seeing at the moment. It seems that I will be seeing this Therapist for quite awhile.

Dreams

So I had one of those Dreams again. I been having these Dreams where I lose things or things get taken away. I had one of those Dreams last night. It has been a little while since I had one. So for instance I am wearing in the Dream a T Shirt, Boxers, Jeans and Boots. Next thing I am only wearing a T Shirt and Boxers and my Jeans and Boots have vanished and no matter how much I search I can't find them anywhere. It sounds silly but in the Dream is is very disconcerting. This happens to me a number of times in the Dream and at the end of the Dream I have less stuff than I started the Dream with. Now you can read into this and there are obvious things that stick out but I don't think it is as simple as all that. Then again you never know do you.

Lawless

So last night I watched Lawless which I have to say is a good Movie. Don't expect an Oscar award winning one.  Just happen to like Movies that are based on true stories. It just lends a certain amount of credibility to the Movie. So it's just not another Movie. Anyway it is worth watching.

Lawless Trailer Official 2012 [1080 HD] - Shia LaBeouf, Tom Hardy

Florence + The Machine - Breath Of Life

Expressing Self

The difficulty here is that you can't express yourself if for one you don't know who you truly are. Two if your being suppressed or prohibited. There are many reasons. So essentially if you can't express yourself then you will undoubtedly suffer from some sort of anxiety. Whether it be Depression amongst many other things. We can't expect to be happy' If for one we don't who we are and if we can't express who we are. I have already touched on this and don.t want to be a bore.

Therapy

I have a Therapy session Once a week with My Therapist. Which is Tomorrow. Which in some sens is the highlight of My Week. Since I get too talk to someone about all My Problems and concerns and the Therapist has to listen. Lol. Just how cool is that.I am not going to reveal the details of what goes on in the Sessions since that is Personal. But however you will pick up things as I continue Journaling my way forward. (Every now and then I have to invent a word which describes what I mean a whole lot better. So if you see words you don't recognize than you will know why.)

Not So New

I have had this Blog up for quite awhile but never really did anything with it. That is about to change since I am now going to concentrate on this Blog. I am not going to give too much info about myself as in where I am who I am etc. You will find that it really isn't necessary for that to be known. Since if you follow this Blog then you will get to know more about me that way. Think of this Blog as a form of Therapy that being for Myself. So in some sense it will be a Journal. You are probably wandering why I called this Blog Night Meds. Well simply put I suffer from Depression amongst other things. This Blog will be to help me get back to who I was which I have lost because of the Meds. If anyone is on Meds they will tell you that it changes you quite dramatically. It has been a struggle for me to regain some of who I was. Yet there are aspects of Me that are lost to Me. Now the question is . Was it really me? That I have lost. So in essence I will be trying to make Sense of everything I go through in order to retain True Self or discover My True Self. Beyond that I will just be expressing Myself through various forms. You will get the Gist if you stick around.