Any Way

I was kept quite busy yesterday what with baby sitting people who came to the Abode to do stuff. Anyway I had the guys come install my decoder for the Telly. Which I have to say has brought a bit of balance back to my World. Now at least I have some decent Telly to watch. So I spent the rest of the day. That is the afternoon and the evening watching both TLC and BBC L. So at least I feel human again for tithe moment until I move into the house and it will be the whole thing over again. The Sam with. The internet. I am hoping to get it soon enough. Then the same will happen to that.anyway what an you do. For the moment I am happy and that is what counts. Right.

Wednesday

I cleaned the Abode it went quickly since the place is very small. Tiny would be the correct word to use. Got My computer out of storage and set it up. Not that it helps anything since I still don't have the Internet. The rest of the day was spent napping watched stand up comedy again. I watched Russel Peters the other nigh. He was very good. Being watching some local Lads. Some of them are very good. It does help mentioning them since you won't know them. Anyway I am glad that my Computer is set up all I have to try and do is get the net. Which might prove a little bit difficult.

Tuesday

I forgot tot post yesterday. So here goes. I slept in late. Then went to go see my Therapist. The   Session was quite Informative in as far as different situations go. The venue for my Therapist is going to change. Plus I will only my Therapist again on tithe 25 th of Marrch. Which is a fair distance from now. Can't really wait but I don't have a choice in the matter. Any how after that came back to the Abode. Had a nap then watched some stand up comedy off the hard drive.

Catch

So I got to catch up with the person that came back which was a relief. A break from all the monotony which is my life at the moment. Anyway they had a great time away and even brought me some presents. Which was really cool of them to do so. I would also love to go on a trip to some other country besides the one I live. The last one was so long ago that it feels as if I have never been on a trip over the seas.

And

So it was another day of doing nothing. I did not do any washing at all. My days are becoming a blur what with not being able to do anything besides chores. Even doing chores feels like I am doing nothing. Can't wait for all of this to be over. I have watched a vlog in so long that it feels like ions since I last did. You will never fully appreciate what you have until is taken away from you for a protracted amount of time. Namely th Intrnet and then The Telly. I know I have talked about this before but it seems so ever present that it bears mentioning over and over. Which would indicate the level of frustration I feel. Aaaaaaaggghhhh.

Back

Remember the person who I said was going overses for a little while . We'll they are back so at leastt I have that to look forward to. It will make a huge difference in my life. At least I have someone to talk to now well besides you guys lol.

Not Much

We'll that says it all I did not do much yesterday since there really was nothing to do besides pack away the washing away. Which I had done the day before. I know it sounds really boring but there is not much to do with no tv and no internet to play with.

Fragile

I have to admit I was feeling rather Fragile at the beginning of the week. I was rather emotional which to a large degree was expected. I don't feel fragile anymore which is a good thing I suppose but now I am the opposite I just feel anything it's like I am numb now. So from one extreme to another. This can't be a good thing but it's all part of being Bi Polar. You probably don't remember me saying this before but I am.

Tired

So yesterday I did practically nothing the whole day besides doing some washing. Which I had to do since it was piling up. The rest of the day was spent lying around on my bed. Which was nothing to write home about. All in all it was a bit of waste of a day.

Missed

I was so busy wattching True Blood that I forgot to post. We'll yesterday I went to return something that was the wrong shape to the shops at this one Mall. Then I decide to go to another Mall and had Breakfast. Which was a Prego steak, eggs, chips, fried tomatoe and toast. I have to say it was pretty good plus I also had two yesterday that's right , I did. I am not going to try and spell it because I will get it wrong. Lol. Anyway after sitting there for awhile I went to go get groceries for the next couple of days.  After which I came back to the Flatlet. Remember not staying in the house till it gets renovated. Which will take monts. Sorry to say more for myself since it already is driving me insane. Can't stand living out of boxes. Anyway spent the night watching True Blood as I already said. Sorry I am repeating myself. Had to do something otherwise I would go insane from boredom.

End

In the end I am doing sort of ok I have too much time on my hands and nothing to do with it. Plus I am too lonely too be depressed. Yes it's a fact. We are loners and we stick too our kind which are hard to find. I have never mentioned this before. That I am of a variety that is uncommon. So friends are few and far between. Hy I am not going to get into that. Reminds me of character from Trrue Blood. Lol. Talk about in the way left field. Or maybe even Carnivale. What a show that was. This is where I lose you. So back to things we all can relate to. Oh I miss my Drag Queen Vlogs something terrible. I suppose I will have to stay strong until the Reno is complete. My Life for a hardline and not this IPad.

I Dont

So last night was ok and I had some Reed to smooth things over. I can't say that I am still eeenjoying Red as I used tto. Before someone calls the cops Red refers to Reed Wine. Any how I am At a point where I have had to consider change maybe tto something like Vodka and beer lol. No I will not mix the two. I am just looking for an alternative to Red. Who knows I mightn't just go back to it in the end.

Even

Even without the Vlogs that I normally peruse. I feel lost. Where would I be iif it weren't for the fact that I am able to post because of some one else's IPad. Anyway I had some Red today which I have grown tired of it just doesnt hold the sway it used To. I might not have it For  awhile again. Then again I am able to change my mind . Lol. Okay has been eventfullto say the least got to wash some curtains amongst other things. Will be doing a lot of running around tomorrow but that is another day. Still living out of boxes which is a major pain and will be for months ahead. I can't say that I enjoy it. Time seems to be dragging its heels. A month seems as long as a year. Forgive me for I feel that I have lost the plot.

It Has

So not many would want to see the demise of such as one as me . Or is it because there are no longer Vlogs containing Drag Queens. Such a shame for what would this this world be without a fan to keep you cool. Or a warmer to keep you warrm. Shame own you that are so fickle. My day has been a struggle to say the least. Just to do the simplest task has been a struggle. Just to keep sane today has been a task. Shame on you. Yes I. Do miss my Vlogs something terrible. I hope for the days  when everything. Would return too normal. Does this make sense yes it does. Especially sincere I am writing it. Thee struggle keeps on till the day every thing will be sane. Who said it was going to bee easy.

I Will

Let's say I am sober, let's say I did not go out and buy six bottles of Wine two for each night. Which I've had almost two for this night. Do I feel Drunk, I would say Yes for this night. What Weil bring tomorrow is another thing. I feel free for the omens for I have partaken of the Red. Something that is able to Transport a Twisted Soul to the regions only Red can take it. Where you might ask is that. We'll it is far from the constraints that which normalcy hold it too.I am free for the moment away from the Meds away from reality. Only where the free soul can take you. What a statement, no it's not in support of drink rather than that which opens the eyes.

Too

I am really Depressed today. Have been crying a lot. I don't think that the move helped either. Living out of boxes is not my idea of fun at all. Hopefully tomorrow I will be a bit better than today. For I am rather Fragile at the moment. Just can't keep it together. Plus someone I know has left the country for awhile which I am really close. Which also does not help for I am already missing them. So aloft of things happening all at once.

Feeling

I am suddenly not doing all that well. I have been overcome by a wave of depression. Which was totally unexpected. Can't say I really know why. But it's not pleasant to go through. Need to find something to pick me up so I don't feel like I do. How would that possibly happen when being down in the dumps

Still

Had some Red last night was on a pleasant buzz. Will have to get more some time this week . Since I am drinking the last of it now. Not planning to get drunk or anything. Just want to feel relaxed takes the edge off of the Meds. I feel a lot better after having a few. Feel more like myself. I know it does not make much sense. But then again what does now a days

Again

So went out to a Mall to get something for the Tv. Just have to get someone to install it. Now I have you guessing. What the ........ Can be installed. Anyway went to a clothes store to have a look and found a pair of pants which I bought. Not a bad pair something simple but nice. Then went to another Mall and had Breakfast there. Which was nice. I was going to say ok but decided not to. After that went to a Grocery store to get stuff for The week. Like stuff to eat. Lol we'll what else would you get. Watched some Breaking Bad last night. Still getting used to it. It's ok not bad seen better

Meds

Being taking my Meds more regularly than before. Not that it has done much for my sleeping. Sleeping more than ever. Just can't be bothered with the day to day stuff. It's going to take a lot to get out of this Fug. At least I am not too Depressed at the moment. Which is a good thing. We'll at least that's what I tell myself, that I am not Depressed. Will not have the Internet for a very long time. Which does Depress me quite a lot. And I mean for months which Depresses me further. Yes I am talking around in circles. Butt who care at least it makes Sense to me. What I really miss is being able to watch my Vlogs and post them. I am going through serious withdrawals. At least I got some Red today which will help some what. I am going to make this coming week a Red one. I need to be able to get some release from my circumstances.

So

Still living in the flatlet so the Reno can begin in the Abode. Went out for Breakfast this morning after having been shopping for stuff for the Abode. The Breakfast was ok nothing wow. Still posting with the IPad which is such a pain as I have stated before. After Breakfast went to a Mall to get some more stuff not that much. But at least got what wanted to at least.

Aaaahh

So it's another day and I. Am really tired running around trying to get everything. Cleaning the old Abode. Taking all of the stuff left to the new Abode. The new Abode is split into two. So staying in the newer section while renovating the old one and once that's done will reverse the process and renovate the newer section. This is all going to take time. Possibly looking at four to five months. Hopefully not longer. Otherwise it becomes a nightmare. Which nobody wants. Other than Being tired I haveee being doing ok. Just need a nice long rest.

Done

We'll the big move happened today. Still have to do a few minor things. But besides that everything has been done. That was the easy part the rest is living out of boxes for the next couple of months until the renovations are done. Also finding everything is also a bit of a mission. Especially since there is so much lying around in boxes and packets. I think once have settled down it wont be so bad. Well here's hoping.

So Trying

Just another day in the struggle to get ready for the move. What I've noticed is that the viewer numbers are down. Not surprising since I've had to adjust according to what's available tto me. Which is not a lot you would think that people would be patient. Anyway all is coming together slowly but surely tomorrow being the big move. We'll whatever it's what it is. Let's see how it goes. I say. Hang in there It will all be ok I think. Solet seee what happens

Well

Everything changes when you are moving. My landline has been cancelled and it will be awhile before I am to get up and going. Will be renovating the new house which will not allow for an installation of a hard line . I will seriously miss blogging as I normally do. So don't think that I. Have forgotten. I am using someone's IPad to post this post. I will post from time to time it won't bee that regular as if I had a hard line . Being running around getting apple boxes and packing the big move is on this Monday. At the moment I am sitting amongst a sea of boxes and I will be living from boxes till the renovation is complete. Which is going to take a couple of months. So I will be without internet for the duration. Went out for breakfast this morning just to get out of the Abode. Needed a break from packing. We'll I can say that most of it is done. Hurrah. In as far as the Depression goes I am coping rather well. I am just a little stressed by the move which is to be expected. In some ways I am looking forward to moving in just need the move to be over. The new place is smaller but the setting makes up for it and it's in a better area which I am grateful for.

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Well

So did not sleep late at all. Went grocery shopping wanted to go for breakfast before shopping but ended up going after since the restaurant was too full before. So had breakfast which was crumpets, eggs, patties, caramelized onions and potatoes and bacon. Not the traditional breakfast for sure. Went back to the abode and spent the rest of the day packing boxes. Got Promised Land on dvd which turned out to be a really slow movie. Not even real entertainment at all so ended up being boring as all hell. So much for the dvd. lol. I have seen much better before. But this weekend is turning out to be a bit of a dismal one when it comes to movies hopefully tonight's one will be better.

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I Must

I must say that my Stress levels have not been too bad and my Depression is manageable at the moment. the move is stressing me out at the moment. So there is so much to do its just not funny. Have been packing. Slowly. Should have all of it done by the week end before the actual move. I have been taking my Meds every second day as opposed to every day just to stretch them out since my Doctors appointment is  longer than the amount given to me. I always try to get an appointment the same day as when I go see My Therapist. So its not always possible to get it within thirty days some times its over thirty days. Since I only get enough for thirty days if I make my appointment after that then I have to stretch my |Meds so I have enough for the time allotted. Hopefully that all made sense.
So all things considered I am not doing to badly at the moment. I shouldn't speak too soon for that can change at any time.

This Is

So as per usual ..... ....... ....... ......... You should be able to fill in the blank by now. How do I start my day. I sleep late. So I slept late. Then I went to Gym. Which was ok I did not do so well on the tread mill, if that's what you call it. I felt weird doing it. Maybe because I had just done twenty minutes on the rowing machine. Could be that or could just be that I am unfit. I have lost a small amount which I can feel. Not enough to get too exited about. Anyway that's that. I then went home and had a ........ . Yes I had a nap it was just not enough that I slept late I had a nap after gym lol. What can I say it was just one of those things. Had a pizza for supper. One of those store bought the DIY kind. Any hoo as well as some Red which went down well. Then I watched "This Is The End" on dvd. I have to say that I was not gonna mention that I even watched it. That's how bad the movie was. It was terrible so don't watch it. And that was that fro Friday.