Feeling

I feel weird I just cant put my finger on why. I don't know if it is because I have been out of contact with the what is going on sometimes. You cant put your finger on why your feeling a specific way. Then again it could just be me. It could just be that I have been sleeping way too much lol. None the less I will get to the bottom of it.
I picked up some weight since I have been away. Which I am not too happy about for I know it's going to be a bitch to get off. Once you got it. It just does not want to go away quietly. Plus I have not been to Gym in December. So I am totally unfit. Which  is another reason to feel weird about.

Don't

My Depression is not bad at the moment. maybe just a bit of Anxiety. I always feel anxious the day before I have to clean. Why I don't know. I know it does not make any sense. But it is what it is. Once I start it gets better its just the day before and the morning that are difficult for me.

Early

I am really thankful that the neighbors stopped their music blaring late in the afternoon and did not go into the night. Which helped my Anxiety a whole bunch. I hate feeling Anxious its almost like your body is being poisoned. It has an adverse effect on your body. I don't know if you feel the same. But that's how I feel.

Noise

So the neighbors are being neighbors by playing their Music loud. So I am a bit stressed out at the moment. I will have a glass of Red just now to soothe the anxiety. I decided to pour myself a Red anyway. Have to settle my nerves some way.

Have To Say

My Depression has not been so bad of Late and neither has My Anxiety. I  have upped My Meds for Anxiety. Meaning without the Dr knowing. So My Anxiety is manageable to some degree. I can get Anxious if the circumstances around me change. Other than that I am ok in managing it. Watch now as soon as I have said this I will be freaked out and My Anxiety will go through the roof and with it My Depression. I get Depressed when My Anxiety goes up. I also get Depressed for other reasons as well. I do feel that when I drink Alcohol it goes a long way to allow me to feel like myself as well as being able to manage the circumstances. Unfortunately its not a good idea to rely on Alcohol to set you right. That's Why I only drink on the weekend in the evenings. My Anxiety tends to peak on the weekends when everyone is around and not at work . During the week its not so bad that is my Anxiety.

I Did

I forgot to take MY Meds this morning so I am feeling Anxious. I took one of my Meds for Anxiety just now so it should kick in shortly. Well that is I hope so. I suppose it depends on your metabolism and how fast it is. I hate felling Anxious.

One

I took a whole tablet this morning so that I would not be too Anxious today. Normally I am only supposed to have a half. So today has not been to bad in regards to the Anxiety. Even though my Neighbor is acting up. I just could not be bothered going to complain about there insensitivity. Which for them it comes easily.

I Knew

I took extra Anxiety Meds this morning for I just knew today was going to be stressful and to some degree it was. So I am glad that I did. When I got back from running around I went and lay down for awhile and probably will again after this. Before I left this morning my Neighbors were up to their usual nonsense. I was thinking that I was going to come back and they would be continuing. But thankfully they had gone out. Which I was thankful for. I just don't get why I have to have people like them living next door to me. Can.t they go live amongst their own kind. Anyway I suppose that's wishful thinking.

However

I am a bit Anxious at the moment which does not really help too much. It's a combination of the two situational and the normal type. What is quite bizarre is that anti depressants can make you Anxious so there's that as well. Go figure you just cant win can you. I think that if there is anything that I hate is feeling Anxious. It is no party. Feeling Anxious is the same as being on edge. If that helps a bit with trying to identify the feeling.

Was

Just a bit anxious this Morning. For I did not know what to expect when I got back to The Abode. Just hoping for a quite day I suppose. You know the neighbor and all. will be looking at Abodes tomorrow again. Still not in a rush. All in good time. Could even only be next year for all I know.

Good

I really haven't had too much to be Anxious this week so far. Which is a good thing. I shouldn't speak too soon since we are only half way through the week so far. I have also had enough Vlogs so far to keep me busy which is also a good thing. So all in all every thing is good so far this week.

Afternoon

lay on My Bed with the sun shining in just lazing. Did feel a bit Anxious coming back to The Abode. Still am to a certain degree. it is the normal Sunday anxiety I think. I always get anxious on Sunday for the next day being Monday. It is a guaranteed thing. Sometimes it's bad sometimes it's mild but always there on a Sunday. What can you do.

Was

Was a bit anxious coming back to the Abode wasn't too sure if my neighbor would be behaving and not playing loud music as is usual. Fortunately it was quiet. Otherwise I would have not been able to have a rest this afternoon. So that was a change. Just hate when your on nerves edge worrying about if something is going to start or not and not having control over your circumstances.

A Lot

I Always get really Anxious the night before that is last night. I am not too sure why I get so stressed about Monday. It reminds of the School days when you had the Sunday Blues because the next day is School Well its not much different for me. |Except it is much worse. So that every Sunday is a struggle for me.

I Was

I was a bit Anxious today which was Situational I would say ans just general Anxiety. I just hate it when I feel like that. It definitely detracts from what is happening and does not allow me to enjoy what is happening. Well it's something I have to learn to live with on an ongoing basis. I was told of a herbal tablet which can help just I forgot what it is called. I will ask my Doctor what it is called again. Just hopefully I remember this time.

Just

I am not doing as well as I could be this week. The anxiety levels are up as well as the depression. I am just not feeling myself at the moment. I do know why and it will only get better after this week is over. So I am hoping that this week will fly as fast as possible. It is quite trying and tiring going through these emotions it really does sap you of your energy. I even cancelled going tho the Support Group tonight.. I will just have to go next week instead.

Had To

I had to take a med during the day since I am not doing that well when it comes to anxiety, Just whats happening around me triggered it off. My Neighbor is being an .......... by playing his music loud again. Went looking for other abodes today did not see anything that was cool. So I was out for this morning.

Weekends

I have come to the conclusion that I am the most anxious when it comes to the weekends. Too many variables. I think that the most important thing with Anxiety is the loss of control. Then when there are too many variables there is the onset of Anxiety. mes can only help you so much. That I can attest too. I have a Med for half day which I only take if I an too stressed. Well I am supposed to take it normally. I just keep it for when I am the most anxious. There is another Tab I have heard of which mellows you out when you really get stressed. I am going to speak to my doctor about it and see if the Doctor knows about. Maybe I can get it if it exists.

Anxious

Feeling rather Anxious today. So took the Mid day tablet. It's kinda working. Just wish I could get something stronger. Hate feeling like this. Not a great feeling at all. I suppose some of it's circumstantial.

Had To

Today I had to take the Med for Anxiety since I was feeling Anxious this Morning. As I said before I am not taking the Mid Day Only if I need it. Well today I really need it plus I have enough over for me to do so since I am not taking the Mid Day Meds. I just wish there was something a bit more potent.